some time

yeah it's been some time.
yesterday i arrived back from Hawaii... more on that later.
but for now...

aren't relationships supposed to be reciprocal?
i thought i was done with these but i guess i'm not.
"female issues" [laugh it out]
it's bad to be labeled a "female" .. yeah?

i want to scream. SO? WHAT THE FUCK? AND?
sacrifice, respect, loyalty, and trust.

i want to check them all off.

before these entries turn into a replica of 07, i should just take really, really, really, really deeeeeeeep breaths.
this is rational. i shouldn't feel like i need to meet someone/some group's standards. what happened?

see-saw, not a balance. i'm too much. i'm too much. i'm too much.
you said it yourself.

these have roots.

i should flip the switch.
catch it from the other side.



(for now)


new era

August 1st is fast approaching and I need to find tenants for this apartment. I'm moving into a one bedroom and I'm superfcknexcited. So today, on my day off, I've been walking around just touring different sites; some are better than others but utilities and appliances have been the prime determining factor on whether or not I want to move into the place. I was lucky when I got this apartment -- washer&dryer + a microwave with utilities included?! -- totally took advantage of this!

I have an appointment to see a place across the street in 10 minutes.

ahhh wish me luck, pleeeease.
(or else I'll be homeless!)



Billy Mays
July 20, 1958 - June 28, 2009


a week in threes


Ed McMahon
March 6, 1923 – June 23, 2009
Farrah Fawcett
February 2, 1947 - June 25, 2009

Michael Jackson
August 29, 1958 - June 25, 2009


SR; the average american male

finished the book i bought yesterday this morning but i had to take a break last night because of some... certain circumstances. anyway, the title is the average american male by chad kultgen & it was the realest book i've ever read (i have no better way of putting it). easy read, light, and targeted for my generation, it still had little lessons i think i'll carry with me. despite the constant references to sex and cussing every other line, i genuinely liked it and recommend it to anyone who doesn't get offended easily. besides, i think that kinda stuff is a good change from all the seriousness we're all too tangled in.


a note:

if you see this cat on the streets, it's because i put him there.